Positive… Always.

Hello world!

As I was looking around my site, I came across a tag that I saw was associated with my blog and that tag was “positive”.  That got me thinkin’!  I wanted to write a post about being very positive, especially body positive.  I’m not going to sit here and write, “You need to go to the gym five times a week.  You need to eat healthy.  You need to do something.  You need to look a certain way” (there’s a reason as to why I italicized the word “need”).  Honestly, I don’t even do those things 90% of the time.  Me, personally, I wouldn’t tell someone to do something, look a certain way, or be a certain someone because I wouldn’t want someone to tell me those things, either.  But there’s one thing I would tell someone  to “be” and that one thing is to be unapologetically yourself.  Let me tell you a little story about me.

When I was in the 6th grade, I was watching America’s Next Top Model and at one moment, I wanted to be a model.  So I thought, “I need to be skinny.”  Good idea, right?  In full disclosure, I was very self-conscious about my image and my body, which lead into a six year eating disorder downward spiral.  I jumped anywhere between bulimia and anorexia.  I eventually became very unhappy and I didn’t let anyone into my life because I was ashamed of whom I had become.  When I finally hit my last year of high school, I was emotionally tired.  I thought, “You know, Coohleen, will you ever look like Mila Kunis when you wake up?  Will you ever be sincerely happy with who you’ve become and will become?”  At that moment, it hit me like a silent train running at 100 miles per hour, “You’ll never be Mila Kunis because Mila Kunis is the only person who will ever look like Mila Kunis when she wakes up.”  At that very moment, I decided I wanted to be happy and that day, I ate without feeling like I was ugly, fat, worthless.  I was also bullied a lot as a kid for wearing the same clothes all the time, for being thicker than most, and for being really ugly to everyone else.  After high school, everything changes, trust me.  Eventually, I stop listening to negative comments people had to say about me and I walked away with my head held high and my eyebrows on fleek.  I learned to just be myself and if anyone didn’t like that, I gracefully shut that door and allowed a new door to open.

Being sincerely happy with who you were, who you are, and who you want to become is a very difficult journey, but no matter where you’ve come from and  how long it took you to get to where you are now, best believe you deserve to be happy.  Don’t listen to people who try to put you down because those words are not worth thinking about.  Believe that you are charismatic, witty, talented, beautiful, and all the other wonderful adjectives in between and you’ll eventually become that person.  Now that I’m 21, I like to say that I have a few experiences in my bag, so trust me when I say that the best version of you is when you are unapologetically yourself.  Just because you don’t fit in with a certain crowd, someone doesn’t like you, or any other negative BS,  doesn’t mean you’re worthless.  In actuality, you’re priceless.  For all of those who feel like you’re not as handsome or as pretty as the next person, I can’t tell you to change the way you feel, but I wanted to tell you that you’re the best lookin’ unicorn out there (; you are “be-you-tiful”

With lots of love,

Coohleen ❤

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Hello from my little cave called COLLEGE!

Hello world!

I haven’t posted since… July?  I honestly don’t remember because one, I haven’t checked my last post and two, the internal lazy girl in me is saying I haven’t posted since July (: I just wanted to give a quick update as to why I have been gone.  I am currently working in a research lab doing science-y things and I am also a full-time cell/molecular biology student.  My life has been purely dedicated to school and work, so I deeply apologize for the lack of posts.  I’ve been slackin’, I’ve been slackin’ *sings like Beyonce in Drunk in Love*.  I will try to post new content as quickly as I can!  I know I’ve promised to do a haul post, but I think that’s a little out of my league since college has basically consumed my life.  However, I think I’m going to do more “talk-y” posts and talk a little bit more about myself and how I’ve overcome a lot of challenges.  What kind of challenges, you may ask… Well, I want to do posts about body positivity, bullying, and cystic acne.  In my lifetime (actually, I’m 21 so that isn’t too young nor too old, no…?), I’ve had to overcome a lot of insecurities  which includes a lot of hurt and sadness.  As I think about it right now, I’m in a happy place and I want to share that with you all.  Well, to the few people who still read my blog, thank you for sticking around!

With lots of love,

Coohleen ❤

I’m finally going to do this! Here I go…

Hello world!

My name is Coohleen (pronounced COOL-LEAN) and this is my first ever blog post!  I’m super excited to actually start this blog because I’ve always wanted to express and share my feelings, opinions, and advice– advice if you want to take it, that’s all up to you!  The whole reason I’m starting this blog is to not make my way into the beauty world and all its glory, but to share a part of my journey with all of you.  Since it’s my first ever blog, “all of you” meaning anyone who’s interested in reading what I have to say. Heh!

I’m finally at a point in my life where I want to start a new chapter filled with beauty, adventure, laughter, and a sense of living unapologetically.  I want to start this new chapter of my life with opening up to those who are willing to listen because I’ve spent a lot of time afraid; I was afraid of being laughed at, judged, overly criticized, and the list goes on and on…  This time, I’m putting all my fears aside, tearing down those walls ridden with insecurities, and giving myself the best possible shot to make a difference.

I really want my blog to be personal to me and to all of those who can relate.  I will be posting content about things I love to do, to eat, to talk about, to laugh about, etc. so I will be posting about beauty ( mostly reviews and recommendations about skin care, hair care, and makeup), advice about life (family, friends, love…), food, and of course animal memes!  Who doesn’t love a cute cat meme and/or a meme about a dog loving his/her companion!?  I will be posting every Tuesday, Thursday, and Sunday!

I hope you guys enjoy all that I have to offer and I’ll speak to you all very soon! x

With lots of love,

Coohleen